Happy Fall Ya'll!

 Fall is here, and there are so many things that I love about it!

So here are my ABC's of  my favorite Fall things.

A - Acorns, apples, Autumn
B - Baking & Butternut squash
C - Cuddling & Colors, I love seeing the trees change, such a variety of color, it is so pretty!
D- Decorating, I think I have the most decorations for Fall, I love pumpkins & scarecrows
E -End f summer ( not one of my favorite things), but E is a challenge LOL
F- Fall Festivities! Pumpkin Patch, Apple Orchard, Hay Rides!
G- Gourds, fun to decorate with.
H -Halloween ,& Harvests
I - Indian Summer, I hope we get one this year
J -Jack -O-Lanterns
K-Kids playing in the leaves
L - Leafs
M -Mug full of hot spiced apple cider MMMM
N - Nutmeg, one of my favorite fall spices
O - October babies, My Brianna ♥
P- Pumpkins, I love pumpkin stuff, the smell, the color, picking one out!
Q - Snuggling under my big warm comfy quilt
R - Reading, perfect for those cool rain fall days, curled up with a good book
S- Squash MMMMM
T - T.V. All my shows come back on that I like to watch
U - Ummmm U is kinda hard lol How about Umbrella, for the rainy days
V - Vibrant colors
W - Wreathe - full of vibrant colored leaves, pine cones, and acorns
X- X is hard too so Im going to say X is 10 in roman numerals, and the 10th month is October....Its all I got

Y - Yard work, I love it actually!
Z - Zesty colors, smells, and flavors & Zuchinni!

My Poor Baby!

Ugh I am almost positive that any mother out there would agree that seeing your children , in pain or hurting in anyway is the worst! Well I think Brianna is teething, and man is she ever miserable! She has diarhea, and her little tush is just bright red :o( I have been using ointment on it, but it stil hurts and she just screams when I have to clean her up....Ugh I hate it! Then tonight, as if it wasnt bad enough that she is cranky and miserable and sore, she gets a runny nose......*long sigh* My other kids never had these symptoms when they were cutting teeth, but this is how it goes for Brianna. So I think tonight when Terry gets home I may run up to walkmart or Meijer and buy one ofthse handy dandy little mesh pacifier gems. We have used the wash cloth and the orajel....Now Im going to try one of these little doo dads, just another thing that wasnt around when the other kids were little. 
Anyway Im praying tonight for some relief for my poor baby, and a good nights sleep. There is nothing worse than a tired stressed momma, and a unhappy teething baby.....Calgon...Take me away!?

My Dilemna....

Blogging is great! What an awesome place to just get stuff out of your head, and get a little feedback while your at it too! Today's topic is something that I am very torn about and go back and forth with myself like every day on what I should do. It is frustrating UGH! I have been praying about it, but haven't received my instructions just yet.....I don't think?

NURSING SCHOOL!!!!!

BLAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

That is my Dilemna!
Should I go back now, or should I wait. Here is the situation.

 I could go back in January (you have to pick up where you left off) and I would have to take one class, and them 2 days of clincal, for that semester. If I go back in January I am guarenteed a spot in the program, I wouldn't have to wait to get back in. (Bonus for Nursing program)  I wouldnt have to retake any of the classes I already have, which are alot.

If I don't go back in January though, I basically have to start over from scratch, retake everything, and go back into the pool of students trying to get into the nursing program.

Now I was in the nursing program before, and I did ok in it, except for the one med surg. class I didn't pass, which is what kicked me out of the program. (In my defense I'm not dumb, I just was very sick at the beginning of that semester, and fell behind, once you fall behind it is very difficult to "catch up", So I passed one class that semester, and didnt pass one class that semester)

Anywho...one of my biggest problems with going to school is my husbands schedule. He works swing shift, and it could be all 3 different shifts in one week, I never know, well I digress, I do know his schedule one week in advance, which stinks! It makes it very hard to plan and coordinate most things. I'm not complaining, I am THANKFUL he has a job! So along with his schedule is my babysitting dilemna.  I dont really have anyone to watch my baby, my one friend who was going to do it for me, went back to work. I am very paticular about babysitters.....it's something I worry about alot, because my kids have never been to daycare or anything like that, I have always been here to take care of them or my husband has, with some occasions when family would help us out.

So basically it all comes down to babysitting and his schedule, when I was in school before, for example I would have class all day sometimes one day, and then I would pick the kids up from the babysitters house, or they would be here, and I would have to do dinner, homework, baths etc  on top of all my stuff I would need to get done for school ( your work is never done in Nursing school) LOL
Then the next day I would have to be at clinical really early in the morning like 6am sometimes which poses a dilemna if my husband were on days or midnights but would work out if he was on afternoons.

Are you all still following me?

So this is just what I have been tossing around in my head, for like 2 years!

Another factor is My own fear factor....because I am afraid to fail again..... It is a very demanding program, and I have a family, and I don't want to neglect my family, but at the same time I know that they (they meaning nursing instructors) don't care if your kid is sick, or if you had to do homework and make dinner yadda yadda.....
Another thing I worry about is, what if I forgot the stuff I already learned in the program, and I feel even more lost or behind....UGH It makes me sick going back and forth with this all day long in my head.

The benefits of graduating the program would be that I could get a job, a good paying job at that, just about anywhere once I graduate. Which would help take some of the financial responsibility off my husband, or if heaven forbid something were to happen with his job, or with him, I would be able to support my family.


This stresses me out, but the clock is ticking, if I want to go back I need to have my paperwork in by October......Im terrified, that may sound silly, but it is SO true!

Anyway I thought instead of letting all this bounce around in my head....were I get nowhere, I would see what the outside world has to say.

P.S. Here is my advice to young people....Go to college and get your degree before you have a family, it is so much easier.

Let me know what you think, and if you could keep me in prayer, and ask God to give me some guidance, I would really appreciate it! I know I would be a good nurse, and I know I could using Nursing as a way to minister to people too, I just dont know if I should do it now or wait till my kids are older...........*looooooooooooooooooong Sigh* HELP!

Communication...

Communication.

Communication is always something I thought I was really good at. More and more I am starting to wonder. I have noticed a change in myself over the past couple of years, as I was once a really outgoing extroverted person, I have now become more of an introvert. I don't think it is bad, but it is different, and it changes how I communicate in a way. I mean yes of course I still strike up conversation with people in the grocery checkout line, tell a perfect stranger I love their hair, or give a random compliment whenever the mood strikes.

 What I am noticing is that once were I was more bold, and willing to take on any debate or conversation, and play devils advocate just to argue the opposite side, I now don't. I was wondering why today....Is it because I like things nice and calm and peaceful ....Well yes that is probably one reason, is it because I have matured....could be. Is it because I don't feel like I always have to fill the silence, maybe. Whatever it is, it has got me thinking.

 One thing I would like to be able to better communicate about and share with my friends, family, and anyone who wants to listen, is my Faith. It is so important to me, and pretty much the main artery of my life. It is important to me as a mother for my children to grow up, knowing the Lord, and having a personal relationship with Him. It is important to me for my husband to come to know Christ, and learn more and more about God's word so he can learn about God's Character. I want every single person in my family to know God's love, and each one of my friends.

I WANT THEM TO BE SAVED!

I want them to have a relationship and not just a religion.

Since I have been dedicated to learning more, and persuing a relationship with God, I have come to understand Him more, and his love, and wishes for each and everyone of us. He is our Father! If you are a parent you can understand how you want your children to be safe and protected, and the very best for them. Well that is what he wants for us!

I have always been a Christian. Have I always been a "good" Christian? The answer is No. I have Always loved the Lord, but there are times, many times, that I strayed and did things I wanted for myself, that I knew he didn't want for me.  The glory of it all is that he forgives me, he was waiting for me with open arms, as you would wait for your child to come back to you, and you would forgive them, and just hold them and embrace them because you missed them so much while they were gone.

I am not always good at expressing my thoughts, and sometimes when debates get heated or hot topics come up, I cant put my thoughts together well or as quickly as some, but I know one thing. God Loves me, He forgives me when I do wrong things. He craves time with me, and I too crave him!

 Some people cant understand the life of a Christian, when they have given their heart to Jesus, and they want more of him. When you watch old habits  die away and  ask for forgiveness, and sins to be washed away. A change comes about you, not overnight, but it slowly starts happening, and old temptations die away, old thoughts are no longer valid, you are renewed restored and your sins are forgiven. You kind of feel like a new person, and in a way you are. I'm not perfect, Christians aren't perfect, I know personally every single day I have struggles, as a parent, as a wife. I want so badly to be a good person, a nice person, more Christ like, but there are days I wake up in a cranky mood, yell at my kids, curse at traffic, make a snarky comment to my husband....yeah not always nice, but real, and every night I ask God to forgive me for those things, to help me to be a better Christian, to help me forgive others.

So while I love to share my faith with my Christian friends & family, and it is very easy to strike up a conversation about Jesus, or the Bible with them, it isn't always so easy to share when you are met with opposition, or negativity. I know that is what God wants me to do, and those are the people God wants me to share with, sometimes it is not easy. I have never been afraid to talk about God, or tell someone I was a Christian, but I would like to be able to effectively discuss my Faith, with those who don't know Jesus, or don't have a personal relationship with him. Or those that have misconceptions about what a Christian is. I want to be an Advocate for God! I don't want to come across preachy, but I want to share his word, his truth, his love! I want my family & friends to know how to get to Heaven. We were created not to make ourselves happy and do what we want, but with a purpose. Our purpose is to fulfill God's purpose. "The Lord has made everything for his own purpose..." Pr.16:4

 I just started a Bible study at my church, that is going to help me learn how to  Share my faith. I'm a very excited about this, and I hope it is a way for God to use me for his purpose! I hope I can learn how to effectively communicate to others and share His message with everyone. I want everyone to know how important it is to have a relationship, not just a religion. I also want everyone to know, that the only way to get to God in Heaven, is by knowing his son Jesus Christ, who did die a horrible death on a cross so that our sins would be forgiven.

This is were some people are like Ok good for you, you love God, but can you just shut up about it. Some people say they are Christians, and maybe they are, but as soon as you start talking about Him, they think you are preaching to them, or you are Holier than thou...or that you think your better than them. Some people are put off by Christians that are sharing their joy, or sharing God's word. People are critical and judgemental, Christians included, but that isn't how God wants us to be. So I'm about to wrap this here novel up, but what I want to say is just get to know God for yourself, and you will see your heart change, and maybe then you will be able to understand why some people cant wait to share with you what they have just learned about Christ, or maybe you will realize the reason they are trying to share Christ with you is because they love you, and they care about where you will be spending eternity. It is about God, not me, not you....but HIM!





That is just what is on my mind for today, sorry if it is scrambled, it is just all the things that were running through my head.... Quite theraputic to get it out of my head and on here :o)
~Kelly~